Once upon a time before I had children I found myself saying never and always a lot. Such as "My child will never watch Barney," and "I will always read bedtime stories to my children." After the birth of my first baby I found myself eating a lot of crow over the previous never and always I had previously declared. Four children later I am very careful in using the words never and always. Except for the true statement of, "I will always drink Dr. Pepper."
After I had children I realized that reality bites. You must always be your authentic self because your child is watching. Reality especially bites when your teenager calls you on your "white lies." The bite is quite overwhelming when reality known as laundry is cascading out of every laundry basket in the house.
Raising babies has made me more tender. Immediately after I had Madison it became very difficult to watch the news and not grieve for children in the news. Not only did my heart grow to embrace my new baby, but it grew to want to do better for every child.
Sometimes all I can do is "Let go and let God." There is only so much you can do to prepare your child for the world. There comes a point when you must have faith when you watch your heart walk into the unknown.