Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Christmas Miracles

Christmas can be a difficult and sad time for many.  I am one of those.  While the twinkling lights remind people of joy, the presents tied up with string brings great anticipation, and the star holds promise, Christmas time can be full sadness for the mother that I've lost.  I find myself asking how do I celebrate when Christmas morning will be 11 years that my mom passed away.


In the midst of all this suffocating grief, everything seemed to get worse.  We had the electricty go out in half of our house, a car that refused to go, and just a lot of little stuff that adds up to one frazzled woman.  After paying a lot of money in taxes, a lot of money to fix a car that still isn't fixed the power went out.  I was told that if they fixed it we would have to pay $300.  Hohoho, right? 


While the power grinch went in our backyard to spread Christmas cheer I dropped to my knees.  I'll be truthful.  I often forget to pray.  I am stubborn and I'll try to fix everything myself.  I truly felt that I couldn't handle any more stress.  And I know John was beginning to feel defeated.  I prayed for God's favor that he would help us with this financial stress.


After my prayer I surveyed the damage Devin had caused while I had my eyes closed in pleas to Heavenly Father.  He had found my mug full of hot chocolate.  It was all over the carpet and himself.  Ugh!  As I was running for the towels I stepped in some doggy throw up that Zoe left for me.  Good crap!  I was frantically cleaning before the stain set in.  I guess Devin has a sensitive stomach because he threw up on the carpet to my freshly scrubbed area.  Can you believe it?!  I was feeling very abused.  Are you tired of my self pity yet?  I am.


After the damage was repaired I took Devin and walked outside.  The Power Grinch, who can now be known as the Power Elf said, "Good news!  Somebody nicked the wire and so this will be a free one." 


My burden was lifted.  I'll take the small miracles where I get them.  While I wish I could have my children visit their Grandma on Christmas, the answered prayer has given me a little hope when I felt beaten and forgotten.


And here's a little Devin love for you. Simply because this face makes me so happy!


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9 comments:

Amber said...

Kat-rine!!What on earth? I was just saying to Matt the other day that I felt so bad that I haven't kept in better touch with you. He saw Ray at the store or something! Anyway, about your blog. Your baby is darling, and I don't think that I knew your Mom died on Christmas. That does put a damper on things. We have had some fun "Christmas presents" also this week. First, Allyson (3) flushe a tea set plate down the toilet and we couldn't get it out. Todd took off the whole toilet and everything. Merry Christmas, we got a new toilet! Then we noticed that there was a huge puddle of oil all over the garage under the car, so off the the car fixing place. Then, ater having 3 of the 4 kids birthdays in the last two week, I had to break it to Todd that I am just a tich behind in the tithing area. Fun times at the end of the year. We haven't even dared to think about the taxes..... Anyway, I'll try to get better at e-mailing. I'm sort of illiterate in that area, so at least I can visit your blog and see your darling family. I hope you have a merry Christmas. Good to hear from you!!!

Kira Ludwig Shelton said...

Oh Katrine! Yikes! Is there anything we can do? I know we are so far away, but seriously...if there is anything in this whole wide world I can do, please let me know.
This time naturally stresses everyone out while at the same time making you reflect on those you love, which includes morning those you have lost. It's an everything all at once time of year (especially for parents)...without breaks, without mercy, and without any parking spacing dang it!
You have so much to deal with, to think about, to feel, and to do...and you accomplish it all with grace and humor. You'll be in our prayers...and you keep praying too...just maybe with your eyes open next time! ;D

Lori Cluff said...

Katrine!
I have always wondered where you ended up! We have some good chilhood memories. Your kids are so cute! My mom and I often drive past your old house and think about how much we loved and miss your mom. She was so great. Lets stay in touch!

Laura said...

Oh darling sister in law. When it rains it pours, but after the storm it's over, for a bit. They do say things come in three's. You handle things with such grace, and poise. I always admire how you can turn the worst thing into something positive. The tradition that I have joined with your family on Christmas day, is something i can and will not ever forget. Your loss makes me realize everyday not to take things for granted. What I would of given to meet your beautiful mother. I always hear such great things, I know she could of taught me many great things, but I also think she has taught you kids well enough that you are teaching people and you don't even know it. You are a survivor, and you are strong. What's a little hot chocolate when you can cuddle up to that man of yours and watch some Battle Star Galatia. Now that's worth it. Hang in there, I will wish upon stars for you that your luck takes a turn for the best.

Claire said...

Katrine you are so much like your mom. You are patient with a streak of "what in the world are you doing!" and you are kind with a "if only the world understood." You also have the same grace and charm only she had. This must come from inner reverence. I will always remember the visit she had with us in California that last summer. There is a picture of her and Paul now displayed in Jason's house. That is how I remember her. Slender and stoic. Sick but smiling. She took what life gave her and just made do. So many times she and I would talk about how to cook this or that and what recipe she used most. She was the very most well meaningest person on the earth. You are like her Katrine. Merry Christmas and may the new year bring health and happiness to your family.

mimima said...

I didn't know the anniversary of your mom's death is Christmas. Hugs and prayers. May her Memory be Eternal.

JLO said...

I can't imagine not having my mom around...especially at Christmas time. I have learned from all of this bloggin' business that you have a great family around you!! For that, and that sweet babies face, you are lucky.

JLO said...

P.S. Love the fancy new design!!

Jason said...

Ugh! What a series of unfortunate events! I enjoyed reading people's comments on this post.

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