Christmas can be a difficult and sad time for many. I am one of those. While the twinkling lights remind people of joy, the presents tied up with string brings great anticipation, and the star holds promise, Christmas time can be full sadness for the mother that I've lost. I find myself asking how do I celebrate when Christmas morning will be 11 years that my mom passed away.
In the midst of all this suffocating grief, everything seemed to get worse. We had the electricty go out in half of our house, a car that refused to go, and just a lot of little stuff that adds up to one frazzled woman. After paying a lot of money in taxes, a lot of money to fix a car that still isn't fixed the power went out. I was told that if they fixed it we would have to pay $300. Hohoho, right?
While the power grinch went in our backyard to spread Christmas cheer I dropped to my knees. I'll be truthful. I often forget to pray. I am stubborn and I'll try to fix everything myself. I truly felt that I couldn't handle any more stress. And I know John was beginning to feel defeated. I prayed for God's favor that he would help us with this financial stress.
After my prayer I surveyed the damage Devin had caused while I had my eyes closed in pleas to Heavenly Father. He had found my mug full of hot chocolate. It was all over the carpet and himself. Ugh! As I was running for the towels I stepped in some doggy throw up that Zoe left for me. Good crap! I was frantically cleaning before the stain set in. I guess Devin has a sensitive stomach because he threw up on the carpet to my freshly scrubbed area. Can you believe it?! I was feeling very abused. Are you tired of my self pity yet? I am.
After the damage was repaired I took Devin and walked outside. The Power Grinch, who can now be known as the Power Elf said, "Good news! Somebody nicked the wire and so this will be a free one."
My burden was lifted. I'll take the small miracles where I get them. While I wish I could have my children visit their Grandma on Christmas, the answered prayer has given me a little hope when I felt beaten and forgotten.
And here's a little Devin love for you. Simply because this face makes me so happy!