Here is my list of things to do:
-clean the house AGAIN
-dress Ethan sometime before above errands
-prepare for scrapbook class tonight
-sew comforter, pillows, and pillow cases for friend
-sew bridesmaid dress for a girl
-make Dr's appointment
-take Ethan to speech
I'm overwhelmed. And my personal demons seem to be on attack today. I procrastinate, and I get discouraged. Usually, I'm a fairly social person. But lately I have this deep desire to turn off my phones, lock the doors, and never leave the house. If I could keep my children and husband home and never have to see anyone else again I really think I would do it. Except for the people who deliver my Chinese food, they can come anytime.
I have some decisions to make concerning the future. I know as children of God, and because we live in the USA, we are blessed with free agency. But there are times I wish I could just give away all my choices and insecurities to someone and say, "Do with it what you will."
I guess this is when you say, "Let go and let God." I give it to Him.
I am reading "A Mom After God's Own Heart." I picked up this book the other night when I had my nervous breakdown. I'm just trying to put a little perspective into my life.
Often times I feel like I am the only one who feels this way. I see these beautiful women who seem to have control. So I'm sending this question into the cosmos, "Am I alone in feeling less than in control?"